A Party! A Party!

I'm not sure if I'm becoming increasingly introverted or asocial as time goes by, but more and more frequently parties leave me feeling blue. Typically, I don't make much of an effort to talk with other people, so it might be my own fault. When I do make that effort, it generally falls short and the conversation ends awkwardly. Let it be known though, that I am perfectly adept at carrying on a conversation when well acquainted with the person or when they are leading the chat.

All of that to say...the past couple of weeks I've been to several parties. What usually happens is that I sit and watch while everyone has fascinating conversations, myself the only silent personage. Who wouldn't feel like shedding a tear or two? The other day I went to a high school reunion type thing. I say it like that because it was put on by the school for the graduating classes of the past ten years. Some of my former friends showed up, but it was one of those "hi, how are you, what have you been up to, let me give you a hug and move on" sort of things. I went with my brother and sister and was standing with them then later meandered over to several classmates. One said laughed and jokingly said that I had to stand by them so that they remembered I graduated with them. (Our class was less than 50.) My science teacher later needed verification that I graduated the year he thought I did. I am, apparently a rather forgettable type of person. Blagh.

Please forgive me if you host a party and I don't seem very enthused about coming to it.

In other news:

I go home to my apt. on Wednesday. Admittedly, I am looking forward to it. My own bed. My bookshelf. No siblings rolling on the floor bickering. When I came home from break, I brought things that I never use there. Goal: to bring less stuff back. Goal has failed. My mother decided to buy us groceries, I received several gifts, and I bought a few things. Oh, well. Such is life, I suppose. Also, one of my English profs reduced the number of books we need for the course. Granted, only by one. But still. And they took off Heart of Darkness. I hate that book. It took me hours to read it last semester.